If Only Life Was Like a Fairy Tale

    Perhaps I've read too much while I was a kid but I've always wished life was different.  I've always hoped for a price to take me out of this God forsaking land, that I can do the things I've always yearned to do in life, that i would be able to achieve all I've ever dreamed of. 
    I guess I've been too ambitious.  I've built things up to lose everything again.  Strove my ass off to end up suffering when dreams are shattered once again.  I've been getting tangible stuff that many people would say is an act of insanity or plain wastage but these are the only things that I can hold on to and own. 
    I want but I'm a top scorer in Economics so I fully understand the theory of opportunity cost due to the limited $$$ that I hold.  Wish I could win the lottery so I don't have to stay here, in this damn hell that I'm in now?  I'm just tired of having parents who seem to enjoy ruining my life because they enjoy giving me extra burdens to worry about.  When people tell me famiily is the best, I will laugh because i feel family are the ones who can kill you and get away with it.

My Supply

    Received news on Thursday that my supply of interferon has been renewed.  I now have to wait for the drug company to send the supply over to the pharmacy.  So far its coming to 8 months since my last relapse and well I'm happy!  Based on prior history, I've been having relapses every 3-4 month when I'm not on the drug.  If you ask me, this fact already proves that the drug has helped in controlling whatever disease I am having now.  Results for the NMO IgG have yet to be released yet so I'm still waiting.  Whether my results are positive or negative, I'm hoping to prove my point.  The medical field is not meant to be so rigid.  They say NMO can only be treated with immunosuppressants.  So even if my results come out positive, the fact that interferon has worked in curbing the progression of the disease will prove my point.  If it comes out negative then it's I TOLD YOU SO!  So many doctors have been saying I have MS but there are still those who are arguing that I dont have that.  Only time will tell....

Ignorant people!!

    I feel highly irritated.  No it's not due to PMS!  More of due to the ignorant nature of people in life.  I didn't have to be brought up to understand and think about other people's feelings.  It's an innate ability of mine to think before i speak.  However there are just people who are just so inconsiderate that I can't help but wonder if their skull is empty.  Or perhaps i should make them feel how they make people feel.  But then again, i don't want to be like them.  Life sucks!  

Good Ol' Friends

    The fact that I am able to get in touch with people I've never spoken to in 15 years is really a blessing.  They were classmates from elementary.  Though we have'nt spoken for so long, its amazing the things we can chat about.  I wouls love to find more classmates but there are certain people whose last names I cant seem to recall.   But hey able to clean the cobwebs of many people's memories!  I do hope to be able to get in contact with more people and visit them one day.  It would be a heck of a reunion!