There was a period last week that left me extremely discouraged and grumpy. I felt the people I trusted, whom I was willing to help, betrayed me. I tried to control my temper but snapped when a contractor was trying to take advantage of me. I screwed him! My life would be at stake of the fusebox malfunctioned because I paid for a good brand but a cheap, lousy type was installed in my home. I threatened the man that if I were to burn to death or be electrocuted, I would return as a lost soul to take him with me! That was the pent up anger in my heart that I had for the people in my damn country, the damn country where I suffered.
In my life, i have been considerate enough to think of other people before doing anything but have realized there are actually people out there who may have lost their brain or heart along the way. Out of sheer desperation and because I was questioned as to whether my Professor Dr would ask me to carry out the medical procedure, I emailed the Professor to share my predicament. He was more than willing to refer me. This touched my heart. When i received the letter today, I wanted to cry. I had even told him to state that I requested to see the other dr myself so he would be at no liability whatsoever for referring me. To my surprise, he didnt write anything like that. I was referred as his patient as there were doubts on my diagnosis.
I wish there were compassionate drs in my state. Our world is so complex that it consists of so many types of people and problems. Like in terms of friends, there are those who stab you in the back and leave you to bleed and those who walk with you till the very end. Each step of the way, I am learning. Perhaps its with all this that i am able to grow stronger in life and realize how to overcome each problem.
